Committing to taking more outfit posts because lately I have been looking in my closet and thinking to myself “WHAT THE FUCK, DUDE.” I am like, “I wore clothes last summer right? What was I doing?” I hate summer dressing and I dunno how to do it. Gonna try to document this year’s attempts at clothes so that next year I remember.
Solidified my lifetime commitment to pretty flowers with this new tattoo by blog crush/livejournal pal descended-from-Salem-witches tattooer Alice Carrier. I never really thought I would be able to get tattooed by her so having an opportunity to road trip from Seattle to Portland to get zapped was more or less a dream come true.
My roommate bought this dress on clearance on H&M and gave it to me because she couldn’t figure out how to wear it. I feel that – it is polyester and the proportions are weird. I am definitely gonna alter it myself somehow because it doesn’t totally go with my whole skin-tight and short vibe but I wanted to try wearing it once as-is before I do. Gonna make it work tho because there is this whole psychedelic vagina dentata roses and thorns thing happening.
Couldn’t get it all in one cell phone selfie but this outfit involves not one not two but THREE floral items. How to do pattern mixing: just wear the same thing all over your body.
You know how fb just added a weather forecast to its events listings? I want that for blogs so hard because yeah, I hope these entries help future me get dressed. Today started out sunny and humid and I was so overdressed but then there was an epic thunderstorm and now it is cloudy and this shit is just right.
After about a million cold snaps & false starts, spring came to Peterborough.
Me and Geraldine here have just been goin’ for walks, watching things bloom, playin’ fetch.
I went to Seattle and I fell in love. With the city, with someone new.
With mountain views. With everything in bloom.
Hi blog. I’ve been thinking about you. I skipped last week. I’m late this week. I know. The good things keep coming, though.
I’m going on vacation.
Starting this Friday, I have nearly three weeks off work. I have never taken this much time off for myself in my working-adult life. I have been working with intense focus to be able to afford this. And through that hard work, some careful budgeting, and some generous assistance, I will be able to just take a break without worrying about how I will afford to eat and pay my bills when I get back.
This will be a new experience for me. I know it’s not the done thing for bloggers to talk about money but seriously, this is huge. Many of y’all have jobs where paid vacation time is part of the deal but this is not my reality. Being able to find the means to do something other than live paycheck to paycheck feels tremendously luxurious.
While I’m gone I want to feel like absolutely nothing is holding me back. I have been working steadily at getting to a place where I have been working on checking off all the lingering things on my to-do list. I sewed the buttons on my first sweater, for instance, so I should be ready to show it to you, soon. But also, I cleaned out my closets. I returned my library books.
I’ve also been putting myself through some mental training, too – I am not used to extended downtime or relaxing, really, and I knew that the only way that this time away would not turn into time for worry was to work through some tough stuff that’s been on my mind. Have some honest discussions that I have been putting off. Vacation prep for anxious Virgo perfectionists, hey? What a riot.
Still, I feel like anything could happen next & I will be able to be nimble, generous-hearted, engaging, curious, brave, observant…happy. It takes a lot of preparation for me to be able to be this spontaneous. I have a feeling that this trip will be good for me, will signal profound changes, will provide much-needed perspective. But even if nothing of tremendous magnitude happens, I am ready to enjoy myself. That feels like a huge accomplishment for someone who survived a dreary winter only to enter into what has been a freezing and grey spring, so far. Take that, seasonal affective disorder.
- found a replacement for my much-loved & totally worn-out faux-leather jacket
- happy plants on all my windowsills
- working through a new lace knitting project with something like patience
- newest blue hair colour makes me feel like myself but even better
- spent so much time at home with my family last weekend including an abundance of time in the kitchen with my mom
- almost done my first viewing of Twin Peaks
- selling vintage clothes in the spring is delightful; short bright dresses & new denim for everybody
- new EP by The Mouthbreathers is kicking my head in! Sackville can rock.
- lots of time spooning with the fuzziest love of my life, Geraldine
- clearance-priced Mini-Eggs
- roasted vegetables
- new tax-return-season tattoos for everybody
- Sappyfest Earlybird tickets are on sale! Hoping so hard that this is the year that Julia comes with me.
- This is a live stream of some cute kittens just you know chillin’ out and being kittens. I am not going to blog even one more word because I expect that you will want to spend several hours just watching cute kittens. In real time! All the time! Kittens!
- Most of the heavy weather has abated so I’m back on my bike, hopefully for good! This thrills me. Yesterday I cycled to the thrift store & when I mapped my route later I realized it was about 10k. Shopping as exercise, whatever.
- Purchased my first bike helmet as an adult because my brain is important, yo. It is black pleather because fashion is important, too – at least because I think I am more likely to wear the thing if it matches my outfits. Promised myself if I stick with this helmet thing for a month I can finally buy a reflective bike helmet bow. Femme bike safety <3
- I have been discovering that sometimes when I can articulate the things I need they start happening. Like in The Secret! I manifested a snuggle session with a cute dog, is what I am saying. Puppies!
- Made a quick visit to visit Bridget at the Peterborough Fibre Arts Festival before work yesterday. A whole room full of textiles being made and manipulated by creative types. Silkscreening & rug hooking & embroidery & weaving & spinning & lots of knitting & it was a brief and overwhelming experience. I didn’t take photos because it was hella crowded but I hope someone did. Love that this happens in my small city.
- Snacks! You know?
- Birthday parties.
- Weekends on instagram are just pictures of dogs.
- Alone time that feels good.
- Working on a non-yarn-related fashion project.
- Lists and plans.
- Tender dad music playlists always include “This must be the place.”
- Livejournal resurgence.
- Thrift scores.
- Kind customers.
- Spring-scented candles.
Jason Molina died. Today I just wanna share a big mug of tea & a hug with the people who that matters to. Everyone has their song that particularly speaks to them but mine is Songs: Ohia – “Didn’t it Rain” from Didn’t it Rain.
no matter how dark the storm gets overhead
they say someone’s watching from the calm at the edge
what about us when we’re down here in it
we gotta watch our own backs
if they think you got it they’re going to beat it out of you
through work and debt whatever all else there is
you got to watch your own back
try to see the light of goodness burning down the track
through the blinding rain through the swaying wires
if i see you struggle i will not turn my back
Who can we be without the people who surround us. Thank you to my people. & oh, I am feeling ever grateful to have these songs, and sad that there can’t be more.
This has been a week of continuance & acceptance: no, springtime weather does not begin in March, in Ontario. At this point it’s just knowing that the weather forecast says snow, again, and deciding how to thrive in it.
The days feel well-spent.
- I finished knitting my first sweater & am waiting for the buttons to come in the mail. Can’t wait to wear it everywhere! Sweater knitting is one of my long, long, long term goals & once again I found myself wondering, “If I can do this, what else can I do?”
- Drinking a lot of tea. The kind with the glittery sugar, sent to me by a friend. Green tea with brown rice. A homemade hot toddy.
- I hosted my very first Quiet Party yesterday & hosted a delightful crew of knitters and letter-writers through the afternoon and early evening. It always feels good to have great people hangin’ out at home. I have so many talented & creative friends. So glad that Amber and Maranda have started popularizing this concept.
- Somehow I have been waking up even earlier with the time change & all of a sudden I am having these bright, productive mornings.
- Yesterday I baked cookies. I don’t even remember the last time I did something like that. Simple! Delicious. Handmade. Filled with espresso & coffee obvs.
- New Shotgun Jimmie album is so good and it is streaming on Exclaim! right now & it’s Jimmie’s birthday so yeah.
- This morning in the mail I received a pair of boots that my mom had taken home, had repaired, & shipped back to me. Like wearing a new pair of shoes that you have already worked in! Thanks mom.
- Some friends started a new band and that band is amazing. When they have a place on the internet I’ll link y’all. Also saw The Highest Order & they were amazing, too. You can stream that Highest Order record for one more day, get on it.
- Working away on projects that have been on my mind for so long. So many craft supplies on their way to me! This cold weather feels like an enforced knitting residency, or as Tanya Davis would tell you, “If you have an art that needs a practice, don’t neglect it.”
- Intense budgeting helps my brain relax.
- At least snow is pretty when you watch it through the window.
One more hour of light.
I’ve been counting down to this day for weeks. I always consider the fall time change to be the beginning of Seasonal Affective Disorder season, so now we must be nearing the end. The thought that better mental health & the promise of patio knitting weather tends to coincide doesn’t surprise me even for an instant.
The first spring bike ride.
I was definitely biking everywhere thru the beginning of December this year but even so, I was getting to miss it too much. The city has been clearing away the snow banks from the sides of the road & this morning’s temperature was above zero, so today I got up extra early, biked to the coffee shop, bought a cappuccino, biked around along the river for awhile, and then went to work.
I feel like my best friend is back! There is absolutely nothing like cycling.
& still more:
- I’ve been hearing birds singing lately & it always
- Working on a surprise knitting project for a friend. It’s just a small one but sometimes knitted gifts say things that nothing else can.
- My trip is over a month away but I just bought tickets to see Swan Lake at the Pacific Northwest Ballet. Dance means so much to me but I can’t even remember the last time I went to a proper ballet. My date and I have been chatting a bit about “night at the ballet” outfits which has been really fun. DANCE FASHION forever.
- Spending lots of time at home cooking, reading books, knitting, writing emails, doing my nails.
- Filed my tax return and actually owed money! Fifteen whole dollars. I guess I am a taxpayer now or something. I really love doing my taxes myself, because I am a huge nerd.
- Had a perfect yoga class and then a perfect coffee date & then a perfect knitting date this week. It really doesn’t take much excitement to make me feel good, I guess.
- Standing in the library stacks and feeling a sense of overwhelming possibility for art, growth, and knowledge. (See above.)
- Have been using blue rinse shampoo on my hair like an old lady & it is turning my bleached hair silver-grey and I am in love.
- Sour watermelon candy.
Take care of yourselves & have fun today, & forever. xox