Mark Aguhar – Rest in Power
I knew Mark as calloutqueen on tumblr, and I just heard the news of their death today. Mark was a genderqueer fat femme of colour & a revolutionary. I feel like, as a white cis femme who didn’t know Mark personally, I should just shut the fuck up & get to the art. I want people to know Mark’s work, to recognize it as a game-changing contribution to the queer cannon, to do whatever needs to be done now to ensure that calloutqueen is a part of queer history, to foster as many acts of learning & recognition & solace & inspiration as I can.
Here’s Mark’s artist’s statement:
My work is about visibility. My work is about the fact that I’m a genderqueer person of color fat femme fag feminist and I don’t really know what to do with that identity in this world.
It’s that thing where you grew up learning to hate every aspect of yourself and unlearning all that misery is really hard to do.
It’s that thing where you kind of regret everything you’ve ever done because it’s so complicit with white hegemony.
It’s that thing where you realize that your own attempts at passive aggressive manipulation and power don’t stand a chance against the structural forms of DOMINATION against your body.
It’s that thing where the only way to cope with the reality of your situation is to pretend it doesn’t exist; because flippancy is a privilege you don’t own but you’re going to pretend you do anyway.
It is complicated
BLESSED ARE THE DISABLED
BLESSED ARE THE HOT FAT GIRLS
BLESSED ARE THE WEIRDO-QUEERS
BLESSED IS THE SPECTRUM
BLESSED IS CONSENT
BLESSED IS RESPECT
BLESSED ARE THE BELOVED WHO I DIDN’T DESCRIBE, I COULDN’T DESCRIBE, WILL LEARN TO DESCRIBE AND RESPECT AND LOVE
I think I’ve all but given up on trying to organize around something so annoying to me as sexuality the idea that having sexual urges toward any given type of person somehow aligns me to anyone else who has even vaguely analogous desires to someone who is vaguely analogous to my desire object is boring I don’t care about identities, I care about lifestyles I don’t care about your urges, I care about your agency gay is an unsatisfying category to me faggot comes closer. —CALLOUTQUEEN
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A fund has been established here to support Mark’s family.
Jessica & Majestic’s posts (check out the notes!) document some femme acts of grief: “Put on all your makeup and cry it all off.”
Cubist Literature has a post up today about Mark, too.